[Coach Gee]: After the last few tough days, what does 'showing up' mean to you now?
I'm still in a rough patch. I'm in a pretty bad place with my boxing. I know its stupid to think I'm getting worse, but I believe that I am. Last week I felt invincible and now I feel like pretty much anyone could take me. Now I'm back to being that scared little boy i've always been. Pathetic.
I forced myself to box again today and the whole time I'm worried people are looking and laughing at this fat old guy pretending he's a fighter. Pathetic.
Right, let's get into it. I've been looking at your numbers, and frankly, your self-talk about being a 'fat old guy' and 'getting worse' is a load of crap. Your weight is down 1.3kg in 8 days, your skipping endurance has nearly tripled, and your push-up reps are up. You showed up today for an 80-minute, high-intensity boxing session despite feeling like you wanted to quit – that's not pathetic, that's the mark of a fighter pushing through a rough patch. This isn't about being 'invincible' every day; it's about consistency, not perfection, and right now, you're delivering on the consistency. For tomorrow, I need you to get in the gym, focus on those technical boxing goals, and remember that the work you're putting in is paying off, regardless of what that voice in your head is telling you. Focus up! Lets go!!