[Coach Gee]: After sparring Saturday, what's shifted in your approach, in your head, towards fight night?
That's a good question and one I have been thinking about a lot. I am totally demoralized now and doubt I'll be able to go through with the fight. I can't imagine winning this fight because I am a terrible boxer, so why would I put myself through the embarrassment of boxing in front of a crowd. I'm not even sure I want to continue training at this point.
I went to the gym and boxed on my own for an hour today. It didn't feel good. I felt like everything I was doing was wrong. My boxing is awful. I'm fit and that's about it. Boxing and skipping for an hour really doesn't mean shit.
I did manage to almost get my 10 minute skip done. I tripped at just after 9.5 minutes - gutted! My knees are a bit sore now, but nothing a good sleep won't fix.
Anyway, I think I've cried enough about a bad sparring session. I need to shut up and move on. Tomorrow is a new day.
Let me be straight with you. I've been looking at your numbers, and while you're feeling demoralized after sparring, the data tells a different story: your skipping endurance has more than doubled in 8 days, and your weight is dropping consistently. You're hitting high-intensity training demands and maintaining excellent protein intake. This 'imposter syndrome' you're feeling is a head game, not a reflection of your objective progress. You're pushing hard, and that knee soreness is a signal that you need to prioritize recovery, not just 'sleep it off.' For tomorrow, I need you to focus on active recovery, not another solo boxing session where you're just beating yourself up mentally. We're not hitting that <91kg Misogi target if you burn out before fight night. Stay focused.