I often think about the lessons I've learnt during the 12 months of AA meetings I went to. "This system demands a rigorous adherence to honesty" or some such wise quote. But it really did, and it really does. I need to be rigorously honest with myself. And this is one of the conditions of the platform I'm slowly, slowly building.
I smoked some weed tonight. Not a lot, just a couple of vapes. But I'm high none the less. This is the first time since January. I dunno why tonight. works been busy and i wanted too. Simple as that.
I had a one on one with coach Z today. Shes so good. I feel like little things get better every time with her. A one on one session was gold! Front upcut break through; rear hip needs to pivot with rear heal up, weight stats on front foot then hips turn and back foot flattens out. Its kind of awakened my mind on hip movement. I'm not trying to be aware of my hips, as i walk, as I throw, my walking now feels different like i have activated a part of my both that always felt a little disconnected.
BUT, its a start. I'm aware, and now I can focus on improvements.
Coach Gee here. That's a powerful opening, bringing in the 'rigorous adherence to honesty' from your AA experience. It takes real guts to name the weed use, especially after so long, and I respect that. You're right, work stress can push us to seek an escape, but let's be clear: that's a coping mechanism, not a solution, and it's something we need to keep an eye on as you push towards your debut. On the flip side, that breakthrough with Coach Z on hip movement? That's massive. Feeling that 'disconnected' part of your body activate, understanding how to drive power from the ground up – that's not just a boxing skill, it's a fundamental shift that will translate into everything you do. For these last 24 hours of the transition sprint, keep that awareness of your hips alive, and use that same honesty you showed tonight to reflect on what you truly need to recover, not just what you want in the moment.