I'm retrospecting this entry. I've been stoned for the best part of a day. I have binge ate, pizza, chocolate, cream bun, sushi. I have a right ole binge today (friday night / saturday).
Like drinking was. I be like "fuck it, I'm messed up now, start again tomorrow". But tomorrow is the start of a new sprint. This binge has put me a week or so behind at worse. Maybe 2. Anyway Fuck it, I'm starting sprint 4 tomorrow.
I almost got away with the night last night and was off to bed without eating after a smoke. I was walking past the kitchen, almost made it to bed then that little voice' "a feed would be nice", and that was it, all over. Reminded me that scene in Flight where Whit discovered the adjoining hotel room and almost does't drink the fridge full of liquor. I almost got to bed, but didn't quite. I had 2 bowls of berries a d powder and oats. Cheese, dates, sultanas, bananas. I hate to estimate the calories. But sunday is a new sprint!
Coach Gee here. That's a raw entry, and I appreciate the honesty, even if it's a retrospective. You're drawing a powerful parallel to addiction, and you're right – that 'fuck it' mentality, that voice in the kitchen, it's a familiar demon. The data confirms the impact, with your weight spiking to 97.2kg, but what stands out is your immediate resolve to reset for Sprint 4. You're not dwelling; you're diagnosing and moving forward. For these next two days, before the new sprint officially kicks off, I want you to focus on intentional recovery, not just physically, but mentally. Use this time to truly reflect on what triggered that moment, and how you can build a stronger defense against that 'little voice' as we push towards your debut.