I feel miserable today. Like I hate the world and everyone in it. especially myself. I woke up feeling like I've completely gone off track. I ate too much pork for dinner, I had a small roast potato (singular), I had extra fruit yesterday, I didn't really get much of a sweat at any point, just heavy weights and no extra cardio. I also feel fat today. I took my shirt off to record a short "progress" video and honestly, I look worse than i did 3 weeks ago. My chest on the right looks different to the left, my left bicep is so much bigger than the other. I've been working so hard and yet I still can't see any real positive change. Maybe I'm just built to be the fat kid. That was this morning. I'd love to say I feel better after finishing the day, and I guess I do, but not something I'd class as happy. I had the dentist today. I really hate the dentist, especially the bitch who I saw today. She acts cheery, but its totally false and she just annoys me. I'm not sure if she has a speech impediment, but she can't say Teeth properly (she proounces is Teef) - seriously? a dentist with no bedside manner who can't pronounce the 1 word she's spent a good proportion of her life learning about. I shouldn't be mean, I know, but the dental visit put me in a bad place today. I got to the gym for about an hour for some boxing on my own. I'm focused on my jab which is getting both quicker and stronger. I drilled a few rounds in southpaw stance and the right jab felt comparatively weaker and slower (which wasn't the case a few weeks back). I drank a shake when I got home; 50g protien, banana, berries + my creatine and collegen mixed in. Lunch was leftover meat and noodles with a bit of sauce. Mainly peanut butter, some yoghurt, seeds and a few spices - it was tasty. I also scoffed about half a family slaw with a few grapes and cherry tomatoes. All in all, a decent lunch. I usually watch my son practice basketball on Monday, but today I decided to walk instead and racked up around 4k steps. combined with my morning walk and a quick stroll after dinner, i netted 14k steps for the day. For dinner I had chicken and salad. Instead of oil, I made a nice sauce; Coconut aminos, seaseme seeds, garlic, mustard some chilli and greek yoghurt - it tasted pretty good and with maybe 10% of my usual "drizzle" of oil.