I feel like shit today. Boxing this morning was terrible.
I got hit in the head a bunch of times by a guy thats not really all that good. I feel like my sparring is just awful. I think I'll pull out of this fight in November.
I could be do sparring every few days and get hit in the head over and over until november fight and for what? To get beaten up in front of a crowd of people.
But i feel like I'd be letting myself down. I planned this for a year long Misogi and now I'm half way and want to quit.
I find sparring frustrating. I'm trying to go lightly, but its not how I hit, so I'm slower than i am on the bags. I dunno, maybe I'm just shit. I get the feeling the coaches think I'm shit too. What a joke I am.
Coach Gee here. I hear you, that feeling of getting tagged by someone you think you should be handling, it's a gut punch to the ego, and it makes you question everything. But let's be blunt: feeling 'like shit' and wanting to quit isn't because you're 'shit'; it's because you're running yourself into the ground. You've done five high-intensity sessions in three days, including an 80-minute boxing session, on what looks like barely 1200 calories yesterday. Your body and your CNS are screaming for a break, and that's why your technique feels off and you're getting hit. You're not letting yourself down by taking a tactical recovery day; you're letting yourself down by pushing past the point of diminishing returns and risking injury or burnout before you even get to November. For tomorrow, I need you to cut the intensity, focus on active recovery, and get some proper fuel in you – we're not hitting that <91kg Misogi target if you're constantly depleted and questioning your commitment.