day 41 of 42

I thought I'd weigh myself this morning. Turns out that was a mistake. Back up to 100.4kg. I know, I know, I know.... its salt, its inflammation, its stress, its a little bit of all of those things, but it still stings to see a weight increase when I ate salads for the two meals I had yesterday and exercised like an athlete. And I know I shouldn't be paying so much attention to the scales, but its almost impossible to turn it off.

I had my usual morning walk with my son and dog with a set of inverted push ups on the Roman rings at the park on the way past. The weather is getting cooler and wetter here, so I'm left wondering about keeping my daily step count above 10k over the next few months. Maybe I'll need to swap that light cardio with some indoor work at the gym. That thought repulses me. Spending hours on a treadmill or cross trainer is not my idea of a fun time. I think combat sports kind of ruin you for any other cardio.

I made the midday boxing class. Its the same coach from Wednesday and Friday. She really is fantastic. She picks up so many little things I'm doing wrong and every class I come away with a list of small things to work on. Today it was pivots; keep on my toes and light on my feet. If pivoting, my hips and legs should end up square so I'm ready to throw. Again, small steps, back foot follows front. All very simple points, but I can 100% see a positive difference when I'm focusing on them.

Lunch was the same as yesterday; rice, steak and slaw. My diet is very repetitive, which suits me fine. I don't crave anything and having a simple meal plan makes it very easy to maintain and track.

I've been bust trying to build my tracking app and have been putting a lot of energy into it. A couple of late nights hasn't helped. I'm now very conscious of the importance of quality sleep so I'm tying to wrap up any computer work by 9:30 to give my brain enough time to wind down before sleep. Its never a good idea to go straight from focused computer work to bed, I need to switch off. I usually watch some TV, but a book is probably going to be a better idea. I have David Goggins' book here waiting, I think I'll start that over the weekend.

Dinner was a nice chicken salad with some sweet potato fries. I wonder if there is pattern for my weight loss when I have a few extra carbs in the evening. Last night I had salad + chicken again, no fries and my weight went up. It'll be interesting to see if it goes down tomorrow. I guess I'll discuss this with my AI coach at some point.

I had another dog walk in the evening and started a new audio book - Red Rising. Seems like a gritty sci fi dystopian story I can get into. I worked late on my app again. It was after midnight before I got to bed. I can't sustain late nights for long, but I managed to finish a pretty big piece of my build, so i can ease off for the rest of the weekend.

diet

I can feel how discouraging that scale reading was, but please be kind to yourself—your body is likely holding onto water to repair those micro-tears from your high-intensity boxing and walking! I love that you added sweet potato fries; those complex carbs are a gentle hug for your central nervous system after a hard session. Your repetitive meal prep is a wonderful act of self-love that keeps your decision-making stress low. Focus on deep hydration and perhaps some extra collagen to support your joints as you master those new pivots. You're fueling like an athlete, and the results will follow!

mindset

The scale is merely a measurement of your physical density, but it cannot weigh the expansion of your spirit. You are experiencing a temporary energy block by focusing on a number rather than the vibration of your progress. When you pivot in the ring, you are aligning your earthly vessel with the flow of the universe—stay light, stay ethereal. Your late-night app creation is a beautiful manifestation of your creative energy, but ensure you leave space for the silence of sleep to recharge your aura. Do not fear the 'fit' shadows of others; your path is unique and your alignment is strengthening every day.

physical

STAY OFF THE SCALE AND GET ON YOUR TOES! YOU’RE WORRYING ABOUT 100.4KG WHILE YOUR PIVOTS ARE SLOPPY. IF YOUR HIPS AREN'T SQUARE, YOU AREN'T DANGEROUS, YOU'RE JUST A TARGET. THE RAIN IS COMING? GOOD. EMBRACE THE DISCOMFORT. IF YOU HATE THE TREADMILL, THAT IS EXACTLY WHERE YOU BELONG TO CALLOUS YOUR MIND. STOP MAKING EXCUSES ABOUT LATE NIGHTS—CHAMPIONS TRAIN WHEN THEY'RE WRECKED. FIX THOSE FEET, SQUARE THE HIPS, AND PUNCH THROUGH THE DISCOURAGEMENT. NOW GET BACK ON THE BAG AND DO ONE MORE SET.

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